Relationship academy The diary of a girl determined to let God write her love story. The hopes and desires she has for her husband. She will not settle for anything less than what she was made for. T Diary of a Future Love Story Dear future husband, It’s been a while. My life has been falling apart as of late. It feels like it’s tearing at the seams. I lost my home and I’ve not found another. I lost three fathers, none biological. That one has been emotionally gone for a very long time. I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m doing. I feel like I’ve nowhere to go and no one to talk to but Abba. I feel choked. I’m just trying to keep my head above waer with weights on my ankles and lead in my lungs. I’m just trying to praise God through the hurt, through the pain, and despite my circumstances. I love you. I hope you are well. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 4-24-13 4.25.13. love,life,rough,hard,god,sinking,future,husband, 0 Dear future husband, When a penguin finds its mate, they stay together forever.  Now that takes a lot of commitment.  Yes, penguins are much simpler creatures than humans, but I believe in stng married so long as we both shall live. They also bring their mate a rock.  Such a simple gift…. I suppose an engagement ring is a rock of sorts. I think we could learn a lot fropenguins these days. Will you be my penguin?, 6 Dear husband, I am a Senior in high school. I have a job. I turn 18 in a month. I graduate in five. I have no idea where God is taking me come June, but it scares me to death to think about. At the same time it excites me to no end. I love you and I want you to know that I’m doing the best I can to become the best wife I can be for you. With that in mind, I know that God will bring us together when the time is right. Don’t allow yourself to be held back by things you think I would want. Travel the world. Get away for a while. Follow your dreams. Find God in far off places where His glory shines through everything. when the time is right, He will bring us together. ,see,world,love,hold,back Dear future husband, I’m frustrated. I’m frustrated with life in general.  I’m so sick and tired of the way things have turned out since my life got turned upside down in September. I feel like a mermaid that’s been removed from the water.  I have nowhere to go.  I have no idea what to do.  I have no idea what to do for college, for life. I’m so scared that I’m settling, making the wrong decisions because I found a possible option and simply went with it.  I miss how things used to be.  I don’t like how things are.  I’m so tired. I need more Jesus, that is for sure.  But I don’t know how to get more of Him without leaving behind many things that were my source of sanity during the hectic time of Discipleship/Newbreak drama. I just want to crawl in a hole and ignore the entire world and all of its contents for a while.  Just get a fresh start with God and perhaps, if it seems an okay thing, begin to come back into this cruel world and fight the good fight of faith with you by my side. I love you and I’m trying my best to wait for you. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 12-19-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 12.19.12. love,life,frustrated,future,husband,tired,miss,friends,Jesus,God,cruel,world,fight,faith,good, 2 Dear future husband, I’m not going to be easy to lead. I won’t always be easy to love. I might shoot down your compliments without trying to. When I’m most pessimistic, I might just be a heap of tears on the floor. When I’m feeling rebellious, I might make it really hard for you to lead me. When I’m in the flesh, I might make it really hard for you to love me. I might drive you insane with my crazy ideas. I might weird you out with my strange habits. I might annoy you with my constant singing and painting. I might confuse you to kingdom come with my dichotomy of a personality. And I may be the most difficult person to keep a promise to that you’ve ever met. But I can promise you that I will love you always (even when it’s nearly impossible) and leave you never.  It might be outrageously difficult to love me, but I promise to do my best to make every moment of it worth it. And in all the places I fall short, I pray that God has grace to fill the spaces. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 12-5-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 12.05.12. future,husband,letter,lead,love,easy,compliments,pessimistic,tears,rebellious,flesh,hard,insane,crazy,strange,habits,singing,painting,personality,dichotomy,promise,God,grace, 4 Dear future husband, My life has been more chaotic this past month than I ever believed it could get.  If I’m being honest, it started in August.  Everything fell apart with Discipleship and Newbreak and now, here I am.  I have no church I’m involved in (I just left Newbreak tonight, the church I quite literally grew up at).  I have no small group.  I have no support from my parents.  I have no mentors.  I feel like I have no father figures left (my dad has yet to show up in all of this).  I have a job, school, and college to deal with. Time passes so quickly, though, and before I know it, the year will be 2013 and I will be graduating.  I will be one year closer to meeting you and one year closer to going Home.  Time has become such an odd concept as of late.  It drags while speeding by and I’m not sure what to make of it while being frustrated at its slowness and amazed by its speed. I thank God that I’ve had some amazing friends by my side through all this.  New ones and old ones alike.  I’ve learned so much through all of this too. But I think one of the things I’m most excited about is being able to walk through this all with you one day.  When trials come and we can help each other and build each other up in the Lord is a day I thoroughly look forward to.  You have my love, darling. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 11-27-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 11.28.12. life,love,husband,future,time,God,Lord, 2 Dear future husband, I hope that we work as a team in furthering God’s kingdom. I hope that we see the potential in each other and work constantly on bringing that potential out. I hope that we push each other in the areas where we are strong and encourage each other in the areas that we struggle. I hope that we base our love off the neverending love of God and not our own temporary things. I hope that we constantly work toward knowing the fullness of the Gospel. And I hope that on the day that we stand before the King of Kings, completely free of our worldly hindrances, we look at each other in the fullness of our love and God’s and we see the other’s held back potential that we’d been dying to bring forth finally released and thriving in us. On that day we will be completely fulfilled. I hope that you don’t give up on me. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 10-20-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 10.20.12. future,husband,hope,God,Gospel,heaven,king,free,potential,team,work,kingdom,love,faith, 3 Dear future husband, On the days that you are discouraged, I want you to open this journal and read a few letters.  I pray that, whether you read a couple of them or all of them, they will provide encouragement and a reassurance to how much I love you.  I also hope that they encourage you to go to God.  There will be days when I fail epically as a wife and a mother.  There will be days when I don’t express my love to you as much as I should.  There will be days when we have disagreements or arguments about this or that.  There is no such thing as a perfect marriage, but there is such thing as a healthy one through the power and love of Jesus Christ.  We can work through anything so long as we both are willing, and love, I am so willing. Please, please, please, point me to this letter when I’m being stubborn about something.  When I’m refusing to work through something for one reason or another, remind me of this letter.  Let me just say right now that once I cool down, I will thank you immensely for it. Because, my love, you are worth it.  You are worth every single one of these letters.  You are worth every second of my time.  You are worth every bit of my love for you and so much more.  You are a Son of the King and I cannot wait until I know who you are. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 10-3-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 10.03.12. future,husand,love,encourage,fail,God,epic,perfect,healthy,Jesus Christ,Holy Spirit,King,willing,worth it, 1 Dear future husband, Will you devotions with me in the morning? Will you push me to seek God out in every matter that I struggle with? Will you get me to read the Word even when I’m being lazy? Will you be the spiritual leader that I’ve desired for so long? Will you set out with me to be all that God has called us to be? I love you so much, my dear, and I hope and pray that God brings us to each other without too many bumps along the way. Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 9-17-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 9.17.12. devotions,dear,future husband,God,struggle,Word,bible,spiritual leader,Holy Spirit,Jesus,Christ, 7 Dear future husband, God is a God of reconciliation.  I know that.  He doesn’t tear people apart, He brings them together.  Sometimes I have such a hard time believing that with my dad.  More and more it seems that he doesn’t care what I do as long as it’s not a hindrance to him.  I get no genuine sign of love from him. Love, I’m afraid that I need to go through a lot of healing and refining before we’re ready for each other.  I have so many issues and fears and broken places and baggage that I need to get rid of before we come together.  Because You don’t deserve to have to deal with any of it.  I don’t want to come into our relationship broken.  That makes for a broken relationship. I want to give you the best me that I can be with Jesus Christ flowing throw me in everything I do.  I want to be baggage free for you.  Because I love you. 2 Corinthians 5:18  “All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation;” Avec mon amour et d’affection, Ariel ♥ 8-21-12 (Source: letters-to-my-husband) 8.21.12. baggage,life,God,reconciliation,future,husband,healing,refining,relationship,broken,Jesus Christ,love, 2 1 2 3 4 5 Next page →